No matter what I said

Who I said it to,

Or how defiant I was

That it was the truth.

No matter who I touched

For how long

Or where.

I always

Wished it was you.


No matter what I wrote down

Tried so hard to remember

Or kept to myself

As my little secret,

I always wish you knew.


No matter where I went

How lost I tried to get,

How hard I tried to figure out

Who I was

Or where I wanted to be,

I always wish you were there.


Drowning in years

So unfaithful to the truth

Where we began

So oblivious

To what we carry

Deep within our hearts.


Words become so tangled

Absence promotes grief

Solitude becomes your security

When all along

I only wish

It was you.