Tenderly, as if driven by clouds
I shut the door on everything tonight.
The cool air surrounds me
As the wind swiftly brushes the hair back from my face.
The sound of my footsteps as I take every step;
My thoughts lead me back to where my life is
Thinking only of today
In fact, only thinking of right now.
Street lights in the middle of every block
Light puddles of water strewn around
With small branches to remind me of the wind storm
That kept me up too late last night.
I wonder now, as I always do
If I do enough, or there is more somewhere I could do
Finally I have to put my hands in my pockets
It’s too cold out here just now.
Corner after corner reminds me
Of how absolutely alone I am right now
How vulnerable to elements
To the evils of this world
I really am.
We feel like we have an army behind us
But if we truly did, where are they now?
Yielding to the cold, I sit for a minute
Watch a car drive by me
Wonder how warm they are
If they know where they are going
Or they are just as lost as I am?
When I realize sitting made me colder, I get up.
Do I turn and walk back to my penalty
Or do I slowly walk away and try it all again