Within the quiet recesses of my mind
Playing a scene over and over in my head
Of me, getting everything I want
Which is you.
The tenderness that betrays us
Grief that pulls us together
Wavering instability that is my mind
Pulled from every ash I’ve burned
Because I never learned nostalgia;
I burn everything I think I won’t need anymore.
Wandered straight out of hell
Then held my arms up, screaming at you
“What the hell have you DONE?”
Waves hit a shoreline
With daunting regularity
To the point it becomes boring
To those of us that want to analyze it.
Closing my eyes
I see you
Standing in front of me
Holding your hand out.
My heart sighs in relief
While my mind is racing
Wondering if I fell before you
What you would do?
My answer comes to me
In waves of feelings
I know you have for me
Still I wonder
If you’ll take my matches away.