This feeling came over me today
That I never got to tell you goodbye.
We never had closure;
We never talked about the end.
My mind replayed things I had forgotten
As I went to my email to ask how you were.
When I sat there though
Not quite sure of what to write,
I remembered the end of us
How terribly you treated me
How many promises you made
That you never, ever kept.
I remember the pain of betrayal
How even as I sat crying
You were trying to contact her
For your next hook up.
I remember being thrown away
Like I never meant anything to you
Like I did that necklace you gave to me
Because it got tangled
And irritated me
Like you did.
I closed the screen to my laptop
Looked at my phone to see if I had any messages
Wrote one to someone I know I can trust;
Someone I should be writing an email to,
Pouring my heart and soul out
Instead of hiding behind phone messages.
I decide that moment to do just that,
And began living my life.